Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Profoundly Sad

She's gone.
My friend of fifteen years passed away this morning.
Sabrina Karen
Shoshana Chaya
We buried her at 4:30 PM.

after chemo about a year ago

She's gone.
she was 45 years old.
The last time I lost someone my general age was in college; my friend who was hit by a drunk driver.
I've been in the cemetery so many times,
walking those pathways. Following Sabrina's body being wheeled to the grave site;
it just wasn't a right scenario.

Remember, there are no caskets at Israeli burials. You see the body in front of you wrapped in shrouds, draped with a velvet cloth and a star of David. That's all.

Just six months ago I buried my mother. I'm mourning her still, many times a day.

Sabrina fought the ravishes of aggressive cancer. She fought and fought and fought and fought.
"Tessa is in good hands.
We got her.
You can let go."

At 12:15 this afternoon, I took my right hand and closed her eyes for her.
Eternal rest. You deserve it, Sabrina. You rest now.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Psalm 23


  1. This post of your sadness and loss for your friend has me in tears more than any other post of yours

  2. (((hugs))) May Hashem send you strength, healing and courage to deal with your great loss.

  3. boruch dayan haemet. very sorry for your loss. may hashem comfort the family. rochel