Sunday, October 12, 2008

Where I am

Short update here. I have limited computer time.
As most of you know by now, I am actually in a psychiatric hospital. I'm in a very quiet ward mainly for PTSD patients. Here there are Israeli army soldiers (male & female), one woman who returned to her house after a missle attack in Sderot to find her house leveled, a few of us with medical traumas, and also the sufferers of traumas past & present. I have been here for almost a week. Only this Shabbat (yesterday) did I finally feel that my nervous system fianlly calmed down. Maybe for the first time in my life. It is a new feeling.

I am getting good support, and have a quiet room and a slow daily routine.

I have freedom to go in and out as I please, and have gone on many long walks... 3 kilometers one day, 4 kilometers the next, and going strong, B"H. It is so good for me. I am learning what I need to return home and overcome these hardhips that I have been dealing with, but not managing well.

I am learning the tools I will need to be the best wife & mother I can be inteh house, and in my life.

My computer time is over.. I'll try again another day..


  1. Sarah, please know that you are in my prayers and thoughts. You really have to find a way through this pain and suffering, and I hope the way through is shown to you soon (I first typed in "shone" which makes sense in its own way). You are so courageous that I am in awe of you.

  2. I'm so glad you are getting the help that you need. You deserve it. Keep us updated when you can and keep up the hard work.

  3. Sarah, thinking of you. The peace and quiet sounds very nice - I hope it works wonders for you. Thanks for your updates and sharing your struggles with us.