We bought a used car today. Even though it is the nine days, this is for reasons of handicapped need, so we went for it. It is a fixer-upper with very low mileage, and the body of the car is in almost perfect condition. We decided that for the money the seller was asking (we paid~$750!), putting in another $1000 or so would be worth it. It would still be cheaper than buying that car, from that year, all fixed up and ready. The fact that the mileage is low and the body is in excellent condition convinced us to take a chance. We know this car has an excellent reputation. It is now at our garage for the initial fixes. We won't do any of the cosmetic inside fixes until after Tisha B'av.
In other news, My Leg Is Killing Me! It is getting worse. Last time I worked out, there was an exercise I could do, and now my leg won't go that way. It hurts so much. All the time, any position. The surgery is in two weeks (minus a day). As scared as I am of complications with the surgery, I need the relief from this pain.
I am very scared of complications. Very very scared. I can't even see in my imagination through to getting discharged from the hospital healthy and finished. I have yet to be able to visualize that. It's like the other bookend in my mind is missing about this surgery picture. I need to be able to visualize two bookends to be optimistic. That is hard work for me.
I had Necrotizing Faciitis. Now I have Pigmented Villonodular Synovitis. Sometimes it just blows my mind. I will lose my hip joint if I don't have this surgery. And I still want the reconstruction surgery so I don't have to dress with a pressure garment and pillow to fill in the gap in my lower belly. I still feel that having the reconstruction, the closing of the wound so I won't need the pillow any more, that will be my closure. But then I got PVNS, and I am not supposed to want reconstruction any more? And what if the PVNS returns? OK OK OK OK...... Sarah... STOP!
Just look at one thing at a time. The surgery is in two weeks. One thing at a time.
One step at a time sounds like great advice. We're cheering for you as you take those steps!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the car and the great deal!
Larry
I know you feel scared but you are so amazingly brave, it's inspiring!
ReplyDeleteYeah on the car!! It's so hard to stop the head from spinning. I pray for peace for you. I hope the next two weeks go very quickly and uneventfully for you.
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