Migraine crisis continues

For whatever reason, this is still proving to be an uphill battle with the migraines.

I have had a migraine every day (usually coming in late evening) for a few weeks, and 4-5 times a week for about a year. It's completely outta hand. This is the first time, since I got sick in 2007, that I can finally concentrate on how to be cured of the migraines. There was always much bigger problems to deal with.

Going to try to see my neurologist tomorrow, but no promises if he'll be able to see me. I don't have an appointment for tomorrow; I don't have a real one till June, and there is nothing "available" sooner. I have to just sit there tomorrow and hope to be Israeli enough to get in to see him.

So, until I have more information, or have a direction to go, I am kind of flailing, trying different things. I've changed my diet a lot... hoping something will help. Lately I've also tried the Cannabis oil (medical marijuana in oil drops) which I got so many months ago and never really gave much of a chance. I've tried it for two nights in a row now, the first night having a better result than the second. The second night, last night, not only did I take it pretty late (3am), but too many drops came out at once. It still hasn't really worn off, at 4pm. I couldn't really function this morning, but was able to do Tai Chi, thankfully. Now I know that I have to prepare the drop beforehand, so if it is late at night I won't make mistakes, and be "out of it" all morning. I still think it is not the right species of plant for me. I have decided, after doing some research on migraines and cannabis, to go for a meeting to see how we can change what I have, to see if perhaps another species of the marijuana plant (with different balance of CBT and THC) would be better for me. I called the supplier that is registered through my medical marijuana license, and I have an appointment for Tuesday to have counseling regarding the best one for me. I hate trying new medicines, not knowing what effect it'll have on me, but I have a gut feeling that this may be worth it. The medical marijuana can help not only with the migraines, but also sleep, and appetite (which I have very little of the past few weeks). I wonder if I can use it as a sort of "crutch" to start going off the sleeping pills. That's something I need my neurologist for.

I am also doing acupuncture for easing the migraines. I honestly don't know what will help, but hopefully it's in the category of "couldn't hurt".

This is all so scary. I know it sounds all very logical and clear-cut to you, but I am terrified by it all at this point. Mostly I'm terrified of getting a 'sit-in-the-dark-and-cry' type of migraine, terrified of trying to go off sleeping pills, and terrified of trying new forms of medical cannabis. What will happen this time? There are so many possibilities of what could happen with a new medicine.

This is what my migraines usually feel like, starting from behind the eyes.

Truth is I don't want to be on *anything*.

Let's pray for that, OK? That soon, I'll be able to get off sleeping pills (other prescription meds, also- I want to be off everything), sleep at nights, get the migraines under control, and feel WELL. (That means eating well, too.... that is a very hard goal when in the middle of a migraine crisis. I have not much appetite, and don't know what to eat that I am not risking having a "trigger").

Getting the beginnings of one right now, as the cannabis oil drops from 3am are *finally* wearing off..... Lord help!!