migraines

For whatever reason, Hashem has decided that I have more work to do regarding pain.
He and I don't share the same opinion on that, though.

While my hip pain, on both sides, is almost completely gone (I never thought the day would come that I could say that), it feel like I just switched one pain for another.

My migraines have gotten so bad, it's almost too much to bear. I sat in a darkened room yesterday evening, crying, my head feeling like it is splitting open. That was day two of the migraine, including all night. And again, all night last night. The only thing that can help me sleep when it hurts this bad is Percocet. It doesn't really do much for the pain (Percocet is a narcotic, which don't work for migraines), but it does take a bit of the edge off, and helps me to be able to settle into sleep. You can imagine I must be *very* desperate, for me to put any narcotic into my body. I also listen to soothing music in earphones when I am trying to sleep with pain.

My migraine medicine (Zomig) does not work *at all* anymore. I can take a pill, not feel an effect, take another an hour later, and still no relief. Completely useless. It *used* to work. My migraines have become immune to it.

They have been getting worse over the past few months. I don't (yet) know why. Yesterday I went to my optometrist to see if my new glasses prescription I got about six weeks ago is a problem. He tested my eyes again. He did find one possible thing that may need to be corrected, but I am supposed to use eye drops three times a day for a week then tell him if that helped. I may need to have my glasses revised, but I am not convinced that the intense migraines are from that.

Today is day three of the headache (except for Saturday daytime, when I didn't have it at all, thankfully- I got to really enjoy our guests! But the Saturday night migraine was *horrific*). Today I called my Tai Chi instructor who also does acupuncture and Shiatsu, and asked if he has experience with migraines. He said yes, and came today to do a treatment. It was interesting, but of course, not magic- you have to do a series of treatments to see results. I'll do another on Wednesday.

I have been trying to reach my neurologist, but he is so hard to reach. I am going to try to catch him in his office like I have done in the past, but I'm no longer sure of his office hours, and his clinic says he's not in until next Wednesday, and it's booked solid, for months. I have an appointment in June, but my problem is Now. He'll probably just prescribe another migraine medicine (a few of which I am already allergic to). I think it is all stemming from the sleeping problems and sleeping pills, but at this point, I have so many migraines, that I am not sure. I'm interested to see if he has a suggestion to help getting off sleeping pills, but probably not a suggestion I want to try (like substituting it for another medicine).

Yesterday after the optometrist, with a raging migraine, I drove a half hour to see the doctor I have been seeing regarding vitamins and supplements... Dr. Litman. We will "tweak" some of my vitamin etc regimen, see if that helps. There is something I've been taking (amino acids) that may be effecting my nervous system in the brain, so I'm going to cut that out. It's all a long process to get healthy.

As someone who has had the flesh eating bacteria understands intimately- it takes one tiny bacteria to take a whole life down in a matter of hours... it takes many many years to build it back up.
Once the body loses it's inner balance of health, it seems as if it will never be the same.
Now it's the migraines and needing to address the sleeping pill problem. It seems just too hard.