system overload.... crash of Prototype 2

Too, too, too much for me.
Spent the last 26 hours in bed. Not asleep all the time, but in bed with pain and headaches. Yesterday I took migraine meds twice in one day... not good.

Holidays are so hard. Too much was put off until the day of the chag (holy-day), and it was awful. I tried to get things done early, but it didn't work. The "state of the union" over here in my house wasn't functioning at maximum capacity, let's say.

I shouted at the kids and Robert. I was so frustrated, it was unbearable.

I was on my feet basically for two days straight, with an 8 hour sleep in the middle (not enough for me because of the meds). Shopping for chag clothes with Shifra wound up to be a many-hours excursion with little success. She wants it all too short and too tight. I offered so many great outfits (at least, I thought were great, and I think I have good taste in outfitting), all rejected in the changing room. *You* try shopping with a red-headed 'tween who enjoys her maturing curves. In the end of the day (the day before the day of chag) I shed some tears in the car on the way home- out of exhaustion as much as frustration- and she helped cheer me up! She is an awesome child, I know that. She said she'd find what to wear from her closet, and she appreciated my taking her, and to always look on the bright side. *Shifra* said this to *me*. She's a great kid. Difficult, but great.

Ya'akov's amazing high school is in danger of closing down in two weeks unless they come up with about $200,000 (US), or 700,000 shekels. It's a complicated explanation, and I don't want to get into the politics of it, but I am so stressed out. What are we gonna do? The first time he is in a perfect place for him, and he is *Happy* in school. Now it may all dissolve before our eyes. Will he not have a school? Really? Will we be scrambling to get him in someplace in the middle of October???? Pressure is unbearable. Gotta pray on this one in a big way.

Gotta go- almost Shabbat. Robert took over the kitchen today, thankfully. I hope I can make it through and be a good hostess.
Shabbat Shalom from my bed........

[I am not proof-reading, so sorry. Just wanted to get this out.]