mental health update

Oh well, lotto was a bust. I guess we don't get to choose what arena we get the "what are the chances" game.

Not doing so great these days. This morning was particularly hard with 3 different doctors from the psychiatric hospital (where I was in October). I had my regular appointment with Lily, which is a good thing for me; I like her. This particular meeting was heavy, though. After that I had to see the doctor who handles my medicines- I haven't had a follow-up on that since October.

Two weeks ago I had the meeting with the Department of Health for my disability benefits evaluation, and I was not prepared with the correct papers. I had with me the correct papers for a meeting to evaluate the surgical/orthopedic side of the benefits, but I didn't realize that this meeting was the psychiatric eval. I was short on paperwork for that, and I have to turn it in ASAP. So while I was at the hospital today, I obtained a copy of my release document from the hospitalization back in October. While I was there, I ran into the department head of the PTSD unit where I was. He recognized me right away, and asked how I am doing. I mentioned to him about the TMS treatments which fell through the cracks and never actualized. [Those who don't remember what that is, read about it here]. He remembered completely when I jogged his memory a bit, and told me it was an oversight. They didn't have all the proper approval at the time, and when they had it, I was already not there, and nobody called me. We talked a bit about starting the treatments in a few weeks, and I asked more in depth about what it entails. In short, I decided that I am not going to do it. I will go back and talk to him in a few weeks to clarify if I heard him correctly about it. If so, I am not going to do it. If I understood incorrectly, I am possibly open to it. The way I understand it, it sounds awful and is unacceptable for me. I will clarify in a few weeks.

In short, seeing three different mental health workers and talking about intense things in one morning was too much. I think it'd be too much for anyone.

I am going to Dorit tonight for my lymphatic draining & reflexology. I am looking forward. She is so healing for me.